To start with, I love the military. I'm good at serving and the military has been good to me. This is my conflicting emotion: I have been married for almost 5 years now and have been able to live with my wife for a total of 2.
Life was great when we were together, but even then I had missions that I went on for weeks and months at a time due to the war. It is so hard to look toward a future serving in the military when I feel like I am sacrificing the life that I should be living.
During the week days I focus on my job, and my soldiers (and I have tons of hobbies to keep busy with), but late at night and when the weekend comes rolling around I am just so lonely. I talk to her on the phone as much as possible, but it is somehow empty.
I'm sure others have similar situations. How do you deal with these emotions?